Recovery Is a Choice- Day One or One Day it Has Always Been Your Choice.

I'm back with a second installment on my blog about how I quit a 20-year meth addiction without rehab or medication. I want to discuss now how Recovery Is a Choice. Last time we discussed the need to rid yourself of the people around you who do not and will not support your recovery. That was one of the hardest steps for me. Only because it left me feeling very isolated. I turned to finding a mentor or something uplifting to watch because I had no one. At least I felt like I had no one to turn to this in some ways was my own doing. Mostly this was in my mind. We often struggle more because of what we think than because of what is actual truth. Our logic can sometimes make us think in circles and logic us right out of reason.

This time I want to talk about repairing relationships, you know those with family members or people who you more than likely pushed out of your life because they were the ones you did not want to disappoint, or because they were brave enough to speak out about your behaviors. Those relationships. Now you honestly always have a choice, Recovery Is a Choice and so is mending your old relationships. I urge you to consider this deeply before making any moves. Whom do you wish to have in your life? Reflect on it, are there apologies needing to be made? If nothing else you should consider that letting go of resentment and making apologies where needed is the start of healing whatever mistakes you may have made along the way. You will need the peace of closure to move forward with your recovery journey.

Addiction is a funny thing, she likes to tell you that nobody cares about you, and while you may perceive this notion to be true or not true, I want you to recognize that neither idea matters in the scheme of things. The only person on this planet you need is you. The god that created you and yourself, if you have these two things you have everything. The god within you and around you will get you through this lonely phase. Listen to your inner self, and find peace and comfort in being alone. Once you do that you will see and be amazed at the new opportunities to mend these relationships and make new ones begin to flourish.

I urge you more than anything else to take this day and every day as day one. Every day is the only day we are guaranteed to live, so start looking at the world like today is your last day. What things would you do? Who would you want to speak to and be around? Would you find joy in the simplest of things? Would you find meaning where others may not see anything? How would you care for yourself? For others? Today is all that we have so make the most of it, would you hold on to resentment in desperate need to be right if today was the last chance to say an apology or to just let something go? Think about it and be well. Know that if you think small and take each day on as it were the last you can and do find beauty in the hardship and the struggle.

Day one or one day, it has always been yours to decide. Make those things that keep you running so small and insignificant that not only is Recovery Is a choice, but it is the only choice you have. I believe in you and I know you will win this battle. It looks different for everyone, but every single one of us is capable of building something beautiful for ourselves. If we just take it one day at a time.

-C.J